no secrets please.

i slept with the lights on last night...that is such a first *i usually must sleep in total darkness*
and i left my laptop on the whole night also...
that's because i fell asleep after finishing one of my assignments.
was supposed to take a nap before i started on my 2nd assignment, A NAP, but ended up sleeping all night thru....with the damn lights on!!
haha. yes people, that's how tired i am these days.
and then i woke up late....was supposed to reach coll by 8am to do experiment with emma but i woke up with a big headache. i finally got out of bed around 9smth and reached late for my 10am replacement class *45minutes late!10-3pm class okay, the same subject for 5 hours!*

i entered class thru the back door thinking that emma and mich will be sitting quite behind...but they were in front. damn malu okay...have to walk all the way to the front when the lecturer was talking. nevermind about that...i sat down for like 10 minutes and then miss nik said..'okay class, u can have a 5 minutes break now.' maleh, come class ade got break. haha.

then when emma and mich went downstairs to get food, miss nik started class again. 10 minutes later, emma messages me saying, 'we're eating outside. come now.' without thinking twice, i terus got up and walked out of the class and there we were, 3 of us, sitting on the floor eating bread and talking stories *our stories damn endless wan* around 20 minutes later, everyone started coming out of class and told us that got half an hour break now.

we came out of class early for our group counseling *me, emma, siyan, burn, anne, serli, julian, nicholas*....the counseling session was actually fun. =) gan and urmela, our counselors are nice people. we actually learnt alot from our counseling session. =) *can't wait for next week's session*

ohya, i just found out that one of my close friends has a new gf but he did not tell us!!! HOW DARE YOU, ******!! i'm so gonna smack you, ******!! hahaha. be afraid, be very afraid *growls*

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emma says my turn's coming up... but somehow i'm not sure. *cross fingers*

p/s: i lost my nose stud....so no more nose piercing ade. =( can't wait to pierce it again...!

i miss you, feeling

have you woke up with that tingling feeling in you...
that tingling feeling that makes you smile....
that tingling feeling that gives you a reason to live another day...
that tingling feeling that makes you feel like hugging everyone you know...
that tingling feeling that gives you happy tears; tears of joy.....??

well, i used to have it....

but it's been GONE for quite some time. gone. G.O.N.E. pooof! =((

motivationnnnnnnn!!! please come back!

exit: light, enter: night

been really stressed up nowadays...
my few days in taiping was so not fun like how i imagined it would be...didnt get to meet up with ALL my friends...then i had to study and do work but thanks to my procrastination, i have not completed my assignments which are all due this friday *shit*...
and now classes have started back again...it's soooo tiring..i dread mornings when alarm rings....blegh.
it's come to the point where everyday when i wake up, i straightaway look forward to when i can sleep. which makes me realise....what a life i have.it shouldn't be like this at all!! grrr. =(

anyway, monday (yesterday) was a nice day despite me being super duper exhausted *i travelled back to kl at 4am, reached kl at 7am, slept awhile till 8am, had class from 10-3pm, group meeting till 5pm, came home roun 6smth only!*
well, it was a nice day thanks to some distractions *that distracted me ALOT.hehe.* and some good news from SHELTER HOME. =))))

some how, my very close friends think that there's progress in something...but i don't think so. i don't know why, but it seems so easy for everyone around me except for ME...why do i have to try so hard? i don't think i can cope for long. *sniffs*

gotta get back to my assignments now...wish me luck!

sniffs

sometimes i wonder why i'm friends with you.......











....especially now.

going back to peace.

ah yes, after the long wait...

i can finally go back for a few days, a few days before the whole ALLWORKANDNOPLAY life starts..blegh.

*i wanna hug my peeps*
*i wanna kiss my patch*
*i wanna irritate my parents with my endless stories!*
*i wanna sleep like there's no tomorrow*
*i wanna watch horror movies with joanne*
*i wanna do illegal stuff*
*i wanna lepak at taiping sentral*
*i wanna sip taiping's starbucks.slurpslurp*
*i wanna lepak lepak lepak*
*i wanna do assignments NOT*but i have too.deadlines, i hate you!*

so guys, i'll be either at home or at starbucks doing my assignments during the day and when darkness comes...call me. =))

flames to dust

i bummed into an old friend at 1u just now *finally watched mamma mia!!=)*
i've known her since tadika and we were best friends in standard 3*that's like 10 years ago!*...but when we met just now...it was super awkward.
i didn't even know what to say. damn. weird moment of the day.

i finally got to sleeeeep last night, infact i overslept...i do feel bad for sleeping instead of catching up on my studies and yes, assignments *again!*....but thinking about it, i think i sort of deserved that 13 hours of sleep.hehe.this week has been pretty hectic...i dread waking up for 8am classes *screw em!* ...but it's only the beginning and october's gonna be more hectic and crazieee....you should see the list of assignments that's due in october *don't wanna think about it!* plus i'm gonna be travelling every weekend in october *check out www.h-factor.info =)*
but but.....i'm truly grateful cos i'm doing what i love. and that's what's most important, rite?

stay

yesterday was one hell of a topsy-turvy day. i have no idea what happened to me but i was really OFF. i was talking cock the whole day especially after the experiment....it came to a point that even emma and mich asked me, 'who are you and what have to done to the rachel we know?' hahaha. and i believe it is all due to the blardy 8am classes. stupid shit, 8am classes really tires me out....i'm so not a morning person okay.
kay, enuf of complaints....hehe.

although i was so crappy yesterday, it was fun chilling with my peeps.
it was also oga's bday yesterday *much love to u oga!*



ohya, incase you're wondering....i'm addicted to stay by estrella.....keep on playing that song over and over again. i noe, i'm such a retard.

......shit, i just realised that time is passing so fast...and i need to fin up my movie review *farktard assignment.dun even und the blardy ques!*


p/s: i need my motivation. whereeeeeee areeeeee yoouuuuuuuu????