happy are those who have not seen yet believe

today's been a mix of emotions.

woke up at 2.30pm *nice life, heh?*

then went driving around the church car park while daddy met up with some dude.

since the car park was empty shit... i felt so care-free. turn here turn there reverse here reverse there like nobody's business.

i guess that's partly due to the fact that i've not driven for months !

that was the happy part of my day.

and then daddy got an sms. someone's brother died. and he's only 20.

at first, i was like....poor thing, he's only 20. and then it hit me...i'm gonna be 20 this year too.

i decided to follow my parents to the house to pay our last respects.and when i entered the house...i saw his picture. i know him! i've seen him before...somewhere, but i couldn't seem to retrace back where.

it saddens me even more to see a peer lose his life a such a young age...to leave the world when u've just started figuring things out. what's even more sad about rita's brother death was that they lost their father just seven months ago...and her brother came back from kl to support the family since he was the eldest son.

when i heard that from rita...my heart dropped. i really don't know how they're gonna pull through this tragedy with nothing to fall back on but i sure hope with god's grace that everthing would be fine for them.

i guess i should be really grateful for the life i have. i don't think i've appreaciated most of what i have.in fact, i have sooooo much compared to other people whose life seems so much topsy turvy than mine. i've been so caught up with the world, always wanting more than i can actually afford...that i lacked in just being thankful for the many things that i do have: a loving family, great friends, being able to go to further my education, a nice homely home, and most importantly i always have something to fall back on when everything seems out of place. i have jesus. :)

.:. R.I.P. Samson .:.